My prayers are with ya bro, I know how it feels to be short of cash believe me !!!
At least you have plenty of knives to act as fund raising material should the need arise, let's hope and pray it doesn't come to that !!!!
My own grandad fell ill and died not long after I made the move to Canada and with all the expense of moving there was no way I could afford to get back back and see him so I know exactly what you are going through !!!! <img src="/ubbthreads/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />